It started off a halfway decent day, but OH MY GOD, I sure felt the pangs of Monday while at work. I’ll spare the details, but I left the money and the paperwork a big mess to avoid being there until midnight. To put it in perspective, we close at 10PM. Yes, terrible. Everything that could have possibly gone shitty pretty much did tonight, and I felt like a jackass being the only manager on duty with no knowledge of how to fix the problem.

It’s cool. I’m home. I’m over it. I get to go back tomorrow night and do it all over again.

I actually don’t feel like blogging now that I think about it. Nothing to say. Kinda tired.

Edit: Just wanted to throw it in somewhere that I can’t get over this song. Omfg. Can’t stop listening to it.

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Any thoughts? I want one! Preferably before my trip to St. Louis!

So. Anyone have any suggestions on good WP theme tutorials? I’ve read the one on WP.com or whatever, but it’s got way too much included for me to even CARE about picking apart. I just want something clear-cut and to the point. I just want to know how to get a layout to translate from regular XHTML/CSS to something that Wordpress can use and function on (I mean keeping the archive updated, comments manageable, and all that trash). I’m not looking to turn water into wine, dammit.

It was a long ass week, and I’m so glad it’s my four-day weekend. A little spat between the mister and I with a pinch of the legendary greatness of PMS has kept it from starting out on the right foot, but four days away from work is four days away from work. I’m not going to cry about my week anymore because it’s over, and I’m done.

My agenda for the weekend:

• Belated spring cleaning. I may or may not get around to doing this.
• At least an hour of piano each day. I’m getting better, but I’ll be making that much more progress if I really took the time EVERY day to practice.
• Update financial stuff. I have a trip to plan for, so I need to know when to stop spending my money if we’re going to make it to St. Louis at the end of the month.
• Wrap up my webdesign projects. As much as I’d love to devote my time to my personal domain, I have other obligations to fulfill, and I’ve dragged them out long enough.
• Swing back into a decent diet/exercise regimine. I’ve lost a bit of weight since my promotion into management and all because I’m doing so much more physical work, but I still need to do this.

I’m sure there’s more I’d like to accomplish this weekend, but I’ll leave it there for now because something tells me I’m going to end this weekend pissed off at myself for indulging in the opportunities to sleep in and be all sorts of lazy. Then again, I may surprise myself. Who knows.

I think if there’s one thing I really, really hope I don’t botch is my cigarette banishment. Yes, I’ve been making a dedicated effort to drastically cut my habit to the bare minimum, and I think that success is finally within reach this time. I’ve cut smoke breaks out of my work day entirely (MAJOR step there), and I haven’t smoked more than about 4 afterwards, so I think moreso than ever, I can finally believe that quitting will be doable. I can already feel the effects – my lungs don’t seem so full of shit and I’m more energetic. I’ve noticed a few co-workers have been acting differently around me lately, and I’m not sure if it’s just me being paranoid, oversensitive, or what, but I think my bitch reflex has been getting harder to keep under control. Yep. That’s a sure sign of nicotine decrease. I’m back to being cranky and more stubborn.

Bed’s calling me. If I plan to follow through on the things I’m hoping to do (that Spring Cleaning thing is going to be the main objective, most likely) then I have a lot to do and I can’t let myself sleep in. So. That said, I’m done. AOL works now, so if anyone needs me, I’ll be in touch. Maybe.

I’ll be updating this thing extensively. Well. Extensively enough. I want a cam, photo gallery, a sufficient amount of info throughout the content pages, and a pretty button wall. And smileys. And a better layout.

Three more days until I get a four-day weekend again. I’m excited. Another paycheck will be in order as well… I think. Well. Maybe not. That’s the next week. I’m doing better with my finances, and I’ll actually have money put back for the the first time in like… 3 years.

I’ll post something worth reading soon. And pictures. I got a haircut and highlights put in about a month ago and I have yet to show it off. iLaziness strikes.

Going to go get ready for work now. Awwe.

… but still no cigar. I’ve looked high and low for a nice layout, but I still can’t find one that I absolutely love. I guess I’m just overly picky and stuck on my own work. Nothing will be 100% to my liking unless it’s something I’ve made myself, I’m afraid. Oh well.

Today was decent. The problem is that I’m getting to have those halfass okay days more often than I have really good ones. You know. I keep saying that I want to actually live. Really give the whole “carpe diem” live-like-you-were-dying thing a try. But when opportunity comes, I snooze it away, always leaning on the “I work hard and now I wanna relax” crutch as an excuse for being lazy when I could be doing something more productive. What is SO hard about keeping myself motivated? Ugh.

It just crossed my mind that I’ve become one of the worst bloggers ever. All I do is bitch about things that I really don’t feel all THAT strongly about in the first place. I need more substance in my life, I think. Allow more time for friends and outings so I don’t have as much time to stew over retarded stuff in between work shifts. As much as I hate to admit, work has seemingly devoured me again. The time I spend outside of my place of employment is spent sleeping or doing webdesign sidework (which is ANOTHER awesomely time-consuming mind grinder) and I’ve slipped into dullness again. I need things in my life that inspire me. My piano endeavors did a decent job of getting my right-brain revved up again… for awhile, but part of me is afraid that it’s starting to fall by the wayside.

At least I didn’t dump that $900 into that keyboard I had my eye on. Oh yeah. I was pretty close.

Instead, I bought a Wii for a friend of mine. He gave me his PS3 in return. I bought Guns of the Patriots and I have yet to really spend any time playing it. Haha~

I think before my rambling about the petty happenings in my life get the best of me and end up flooded on here, I’m going to cut myself off and head to bed. Just gotta make it through until Sunday afternoon. Whew. I hate 8 day weeks.

I’d really like to do something cool with this domain, but Wordpress hates my guts and won’t let me understand the inner workings of everything so that I can design my own templates and I always end up hating every premade that I use within a couple days of installing it. I miss Greymatter. That shit was so much easier to use. Actually, no. I’m just too lazy to really dig in and learn Wordpress.

Tonight was really just horrificly terrible and I need to go to bed now.

Boyfriend leaves in less than a week to go to Minnesota without me. How upsetting. Hopefully St. Louis will be doable. God I really, really just want this to work so we can finally take an actual vacation together. We’ve done some travelling here and there and we’ve gone to see his family and all, but I’m talking just a complete and total getaway involving lots of stupidity, alcohol, roller coasters, and junk food. Yeah. That kind of vacation.

Working nonstop until that day comes. Going to bed now. Must… re-… charge.

Well. Wordpress ate my post, so I’ll make this short and sweet.

I’m gonna blog here again. I hate wasting my domains.

Work is good. Money is good. Life is good.

I spend my free time with my boyfriend, friends, attempting to learn the piano, playing video games, working on webdesign projects (I’m doing a terrible job on that at the moment though), and getting back into art.

Once upon a time, my days seemed so uneventful and empty outside of work. Now there are hardly enough hours in the day to do everything. So I try to take it one day at a time.

To any friends that may stumble across this: I’m sorry for being a crappy friend and being so unavailable all the time. I know some of you have been less than happy with me over the past couple months. Maybe not. I don’t know. Ah, I’m sure ya’ll are just as busy so I’ll quit assuming everyone hates me for being a workaholic.

Uhm. I’ll try to work on this daily. The internet seems to be my only outlet again because everyone else in the free world does not stay awake as late as I do. Someday I’ll get it together. ?